January 2012
47 posts
The Renaissance WOman: Saints Have Their Past... →
ohmyearth:
(for the last time)
The worst part of a break up is learning to forget. Learning to forget the sound of the keyboard clicks when I typed in your number despite it being saved in my contacts because I want to remember the important things, learning to forget our favorite song and remembering to…
This isn’t the easy way out. I have a hard head. A sick way of thinking that if I took the easy way out I’d be cheating myself. Reorganizing my role in that situation wasn’t something I could do while I was in it. Either way I feel like I’m at a loss but I don’t know which way was the better of two evils. I wish I had the right answers. I hope she can see that this...
delicatefern asked: You write beautifully.
Gone with the wind but you're free to catch me if...
lapetitefaun:
When in comes to the affairs of the heart, even the greatest warriors can be a consummate idiots. Like most things, I am nothing. The things we touch have no permanence, there is nothing we can hold onto in this world. Only by letting go can we truly possess what is real.
Searching for
Inner peace and a better me. I’m learning on this journey that in looking for peace, I’m going deal with chaos. Currently, I feel like the chaotic stage is in effect. I’m praying to the supreme beings or maybe those spirits that watch over me, that out of this I will be a better friend, daughter, sister and lover. I also pray for guidance on my path to a balance of inner peace....
Growing Pains
I may have thrown it all away. I can’t see how to salvage from the ruins without taking it back down to nothing. Even in that statement I know that there’s something in the nothing. I can’t seem to think or see clearly. In a haste I worry I’ve made a huge mistake. Part of me feels calm in knowing that I may have ruined it all because maybe now there will be some peace in my...
Note to self...
The good, the bad and the ugly. People don’t really have a sense of what that is and how to take the total package. Most people just want the good. Shame on them for being so shortsighted. Take note of the ones who can’t take it all, they probably are only worth little to none of your time.
The White Elephant in the Room: Keep Calm...And... →
whiteelephantintheroom:
On Ninth Avenue last night, the blaring horn of a moving bus startles me.
Up ahead, I see the reason for the honk:
A white-haired woman is trying to cross too much street in too little time.
In a panic, she starts to lose her balance.
I sprint toward her and in the beam of bus…
Insecure me looking for security in all the wrong places.
Today I was reminded
That I have feelings just like everyone else and it’s better that people see that otherwise they’ll forget. I need to open up a little more with the people who care about me and vice versa. This is going to be interesting and difficult. But I’m willing to try because they need to know the real me. I need to know the real me.
“If you really want to get a handle on the problem of racism in America, mentally...”
– My sociology prof. I knew this was going to be a depressing semester. (via foulmouthedliberty)
“You can’t miss forever.
No matter how close forever feels right now.
You can’t...”
– I Wrote This For You: The Snow Falls On Forever (Hush)
Papi
I’ve talked about my Papi before but if you don’t know, it will be five years this March since he died. His birthday was January 11th and for the past four years since he passed, each January I’d be extremely sad. Not to mention I would be reminded of him in a strange way. For example, in a house all alone where no smokers lived, I would smell cigarettes burning. I mean the smell...
“Deal with yourself as an individual worthy of respect and make everyone else...”
– Nikki Giovanni
“Why is it so difficult for many white folks to understand that racism is...”
– bell hooks (via cuntflavor) Who wants to shout this from the mountaintops with me? (via ethiopienne)
Coming to terms with reality is a sobering experience.
“The right one at the wrong time still remains the wrong person”
– Ian Kamau
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I don't want to sell myself short anymore
so, that’s it no longer will I participate in my own demise. I’m working towards cutting this out. I deserve more than that. I need that equity and reciprocity, I’m worth all the good I put out into the Universe. I’m going to get it back, I’m not dealing with the part time shit anymore. sink or swim time and i’m tired of dead man floating, it’s just...
Verbal Penetration: I don't know Shit... →
genderfuckher:
Let me tell you something. We humans don’t know Shit. You think you know love. You think you’re in love & then something phenomenal hits you & makes you feel things you have never felt. It makes you realize what you thought is love is not & all else is mediocre. You will know its love when no one…
“Healing is a choice. It’s not an easy one, because it takes work to turn around...”
– Yehuda Berg
I write in my journal to make sense of my feelings but sometimes even after writing it all down i still feel like i don’t know. I still feel like i didn’t say what i was really trying to say. But that’s ok because in the moment i just need the thoughts out of my head and on some paper. let them take residence on the lines rather than my mind because they’re just taking up...
“Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And...”
– St. Augustine
you ever?
had this feeling inside you, it kind of swells up and wants to burst out… every time i see her I get this feeling… i can’t look for too long, otherwise the feeling will consume me. she’s really a sight… and these eyes don’t mind.
“When you are attracted to people, it’s because of the details. Their kindness....”
– Jodi Picoult, Sing You Home (via quotes-ftw)
If you ever wondered why…
Zombies and shit
Shit… just finished season 1 of The Walking Dead. I’m late, I know but that shit cray. What would I do in that situation, little to almost no life left. On the edge of extinction with a bunch of strangers and the threat of death at every turn. The last episode has my heart racing and my mind going even faster…
Time to purchase the Zombie Survival Guide, can never be to...
